The Life of a Newly Wed

DH's best friend is driving me up the f*in wall!!!!!! Come on noon tomorrow so I can drop his ass off at the airport and not have to see him for another 6 months.....I may punch him in the face tonight if he's a dick like he was last night.

That is all for now. I had to get that off my chest.

I'm nervous. I'm not sure why but I am. I want a baby. Mark wants a baby. I have this horrible fear that I will not be able to give that to him. I thought I was doing better emotionally but that all came crashing down last night. While we were laying in bed I just lost it. I'm suppose to be 10 weeks pregnant and almost into the second trimester and where do I sit now, on the bench just waiting.

I am praying that I will ovulate around the same time as I did last month. (the days in Feb and March are the same on the calendar, ie, the 1st is a Sunday) so there for I should ovulate next Tuesday or Wednesday which is great because that's right before I leave for my trip. I am going to have to make sure that I sleep during this trip because I think that really messed my body up this past month. Mark wasn't home this past month on the day I ovulated and I pulled two all nighters and I think that messed me up. I have already told myself that I will be using Tylenol PM on the plane to Lisbon.

There is nothing more heart breaking to have one of the strongest men in my life tell me how much he wants a baby and I know that I was not able to keep what he wanted. I really do blame myself a lot for what happened. I know that in theory that is very unlikely but I still can't help but feel guilty.

Well I'm going to finish watching The Bachelor. Have a good night.

Kate

What a good weekend it has been! Friday night Mark and I had Eric over and I cooked a very yummy meal consisting of grilled chicken, fresh green beans and herb red potatoes. It was so very very yummy! We watched Dangerous Bangkok which was an okay movie.

This is Lisbon, Portugal.

This is Seville, Spain.

I'm so excited to go. I have never been overseas so this will be a first for me. The weather is going to be in the 60's in the days and 50's at night so it will be beautiful!

The only draw back to the trip is that we leave on the 5th which is the day I'm suppose to ovulate. Guess we'll just have to get up really early that morning.

Have a great day!

So I found out through the grapevine today that the CBS station I worked for in Dallas has flipped formats and a lot of good people are out of a job. I feel really bad for these people because the radio/TV world is such a hard world to get a job in and these people will probably have a really hard time finding a new job. When I worked for the station, they were struggling but I figured since they had just celebrated their 2 year anniversary, things were going better.

Tonight Eric is coming over and I'm grilling chicken, making home made green beans and baked red potatoes with herbs...Yummy! Then tomorrow night I'm going out with Candice (a girl that Eric is sorta dating) for dinner, shopping, and a Sing Sing which is a dueling piano bar. It will be fun!

now why I was on the pill. HOLY HELL CRAMPS! It's currently 4AM and I have been up about half an hour or so and I finally came downstairs because Mark has a full day of meetings tomorrow so I don't want him to be tired for that. When I went to bed last night I knew AF had arrived and even made a comment to Mark that I should have taken some Tylenol. Man am I eating my words now.

I need my Naproxen Sodium! Guess what I don't have.....my Naproxen Sodium. When I was in HS I had cramps so bad I would have to stay home from school. I'm thinking that if I can't hack cramps I will never be able to hand being pregnant.

I was a little sad last night that we didn't get pregnant this month but at the same time we weren't technically suppose to try so I will feel much better about next month.

Well I'm going to finish watching Toddlers and Tiaras. This show kills me.

Have a good one.

I WILL NEVER EVER NEVER EVER NEVER BUY ANOTHER HOUSE FOR AS LONG AS I LIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mark and I are still trying to sell our house in Ft. Worth and we have an amazing new realtor who happens to be a great family friend. Here's the problem. Mark and I are going to loose about $10,000 when we finally do sell it and there are 17 houses for sale in our neighborhood. Our neighborhood only has about 50 houses in it. UGHHHHHHH!!!!!!

This economy can suck it!

Okay, bitter rant over. Now, Mark and I are going to test drive a Tahoe because we are part of the population that is stimulating the economy due to Mark's great job. We are blessed.

I have been super sad today and I'm pretty sure it's because I have gotten 4 negative test and I think AF is well on her way. I really really wanted a Halloween baby...or hell...just a baby in general. I keep trying to stay positive but I should have had a positive by now, or so I would have thought.

I have some of the some symptoms as last month but I'm sure it's just my head being really mean. Ugh. Come on positive or AF. I'm driving myself nuts.

Hae a great day.

Well I hope everyone had a great V-day. So Mark gave me his card when he finally woke up yesterday, at noon! He had warned me that I would understand the card and that he had kinda screwed up. How do you screw up a card? That's idiot proof. Nope, not if you are my husband.

So I start reading the card and get to the end where it clearly says....Happy Valentines Day to My Husband! Way to go Mark! Only my husband would buy a card for his wife that says to my husband. Gotta love him!

It's official also, we are getting a new Tahoe. I have wanted one of these since they came out! Mark isn't crazy about the third row seating because it looks like it will rattle when up. It will still be a few months before we make the purchase.I'm so glad Mark is finally on board with my Tahoe. He was so sweet yesterday at the car show...when I would ask him what he like he would say, I don't care, it's your car, you get what you want. Someone over heard him say that and said what a great husband he must be.

Also, the NBC affiliate was at the car show and I casually approached them and striked up a conversation with one of the weather men and a sales coordinator and ended up with her e-mail so I could send her my resume. I sure hope it pans out to be something!.

Have a great Sunday!

When we do have a baby, we are going to need a bigger car then my current TrailBlazer. Right now it's hard for us to drive back to Texas with all three dogs and me and Mark so there is no possible way that we would be able to add a baby and all the things that go along with a baby to the mix. We will probably end up purchasing our Tahoe back in Texas because here in PA, large SUV's are not all that popular. Here, A dealership might have two on the lot....vs. Texas where there are 10-15 on every lot. Who knows what we will do. We are lucky enough to be surrounded by Ohio, West Virginia, New Jersey and New York so we will look into which state we can get the best deal in.

I hope everyone has a great Valentines day.

Amanda, Me, Lindsey before we started

The view. It was amazing.

Lindsey and I on the lift.

Amanda and I on the lift.

Lindsey and I again.

And again.

And again.

Amanda eating lunch in the lodge.

On the top!

Can you find me? Lindsey was kind enough to take me on a black. Ugh.

The sweet note left on my car from the guys who parked behind us. They were so sweet and way gay! They were very good skiiers and one was wearing shorts!

Lindsey and I in my yard.

Building a snow man.

The bottom!

Lindsey building.

The final product.

OKay, that took forever! I will post more later.

Right now, it is currently 3 degrees where I live. Wonderful! I'm so tired of the cold. The bright side though is that it is suppose to get up to 50 here this weekend which is amazing! I can't wait. Any time that it goes about freezing I pull out the flip flops! When you are use to being int he 20's, the 50's is almost equal to 70's in Texas.

Amanda and Lindsey aren't going to believe me when I tell them that it really is cold here!

Mark called around 11:30 last night and they got the job done. This is the first job in Williamsport to go all the way through! He and Eric are are there way home as we speak which is great. He said that he's not going into the office today and wants to spend the day with me. Woo Hoo. He wont be so excited about that though when he is running the vacuum from Hell. (My vacuum has seen it's better day and I want a dyson so I refuse to buy another $150 vacuum that will just crap out on my in a few months)

I probably wont be updating much this weekend since the girls are going to be here. I will be back Sunday/Monday-ish with lots of pictures I'm sure!

Have a great weekend!

Kate

Meet Me, Kate. I am the only one who will ever post to this blog so you will always be able to guarantee that I am the words of the blog.

Next we have our parents because lets face it, without them, Mark and I would not be here!

Mine are on the left, his are on the right.

Now for a better picture of my parents.....

And Marks parents......This picture pretty much sums it all up!

And of course I have a little brother, I am just lacking on pictures of him. Once I find one, I will post it!

You have been warned, there are lots of pics in this post!

Oh where oh where did my husband go, oh where oh where could be be?

These are the flowers my MIL sent me when we lost the baby. She's so sweet.

This is my amazing friend Stephanie (who was also in my wedding). She called me today out of the blue just to tell me that she missed me and wanted me to come back to Texas. That always makes me smile. She got married three weeks before Mark and I(BTW, Holy Cow my hair was LONG)

The two with the arrows over their heads are coming tomorrow and I could not be more excited. We are going to go skiing on Friday and we're planning on having an amazing weekend. Lindsey comes in at 9:00Pm and Amanda at 11:30PM.

Lindsey (The one on the right) and I have been great friends since I was a sophomore in high school. We have had our ups and downs and most of the time we don't live close to each other but she is an amazing girl and an amazing friend. When we bought the house in Ft. Worth, we were 10 minutes away and literally lived on almost the same road. It's sad that she is so far away and I can't be for there for her.

Amanda and I have a funny story on how and where we met. I met Amanda in December of 2004 in Denver, CO. She was at a national conference that I was at for APO (Alpha Phi Omega). My school, Texas Tech, and her school, Texas Lutheran, ended up hooking up and spending a lot of time together. We had a great time over the few days we were in Colorado and I didn't talk to her again until the Fall of 2005 when she came to Texas for graduate school. She had had so much fun with us in Denver that she wanted to come to Tech. We have been great friends ever since!

My next post is going to be a fun one! I'm going to introduce you to who I am and who my family is! This may help to make my blog a little more personal.

The Midwest Region of RESOLVE is holding its Annual Family Building Conference on Saturday, February 21st in Minneapolis. http://www.resolve.org/site/PageServer?pagename=mwest_conference_2009_about

The conference includes:

FREE giveaway -- over $20,000 of prizes to be given away (including 2 IVF cycles, half off an adoption study, and much MUCH more!!)
19 infertility and adoption workshops
FREE expert advice from Reproductive Endocrinologists, Adoption Agencies, Alternative Therapy Practitioners, Attorneys, Psychologists and other fertility and adoption specialists
Keynote speaker Michele Tafoya, one of the most respected reporters in television sports, will share her experiences with infertility and adoption
Largest conference of its type in the Midwest

Here We Go, Steelers, Here We Go, Pittsburgh Won The Super Bowl!!! Today was a great day! Wanna know why? Three Reasons:

1. It's my 23rd Birthday.

2. I got a positive on my ovulation test!

3. Pittsburgh Won!

What more could I want?!?!

Oh and my two best friends are coming in four days!!!!!

Happy Birthday to me! I am 23 today and will be spending my birthday watching the Super Bowl at a bar that I'm not so fond of. Oh well, my birthday has a tendency to fall on Super Bowl Sunday more often than not. The last time it happened was in 2004 so every 5 years? Not to bad I guess. Mark is on his way out to buy me my card and flowers because he screwed up and forgot. We had a huge fight about it last night and he realized he messed up. He even baked me a pink funfetti cake. Yummy.